I don't care.

A heart that has already been shattered one too many times cannot be broken again. It doesn't make sense but if you've felt it, you'll understand. I'm done regretting because of other people. I'm done answering questions. I'm done talking about things which are better left being unsaid. I'm done trusting people just because they want me to. I'm done waiting and co-operating. I'm done caring about if I fit in or if people like me. I'd rather keep the promises I've made to myself and to the people who I love and who love me back especially for who I am than trying to fit in or have people like me. I'd rather be alone if that's what accepting one for who they are is. And I'd rather be hated than break my promises and regret anything because of them. This is who I am and if you hate me, be it. I don't care.

Rather be alone.

I'd rather be alone that be around people...not because there's something about them would make me repel but because I'd just rather be alone.
Being around people isn't that amusing or satisfying. Being alone might seem depressing or may seem stupid when you have so many friends...but only few friends will understand your need to be alone because it's human nature to critisize or some thing uneeded at that time.
I find sitting alone in the darkness with music playing in my ears more appealing because very few people can say the correct thing exactly when needed and if one thing is said aside from that, it could shatter somone. Being alone is being loved by yourself in silence.

Love yourself.

There isn't one person on this planet who loves themselves...they've all tried to change themselves physically, mentally or emotionally...the reason? Because there is someone standing in their way of being who they are. They get close to people...people who don't like them for who they are and expect them to change just because they don't like their behaviour or the way they think, or dress, or talk.
You were born that way because God chose who you were going to be. He made you according to who you were supposed to be and no one has the right to change God's decision. It's God's decision against the person who asked you to change and it's your choice who you want to be.
You can be anyone you want to be but there's only one person who can make you want to change and that person is "You".
Love youself.

Why do you like to hurt so much?

"Why do you like to hurt so much? Pain is like a drug...
...A drug no one wants to take but it's different with you. Everyone's first instinct is to run and second is to stay as far as possible from what hurt them and caused them pain.
Your first instinct of running away is the same but your second instinct is the opposite. You keep running back to the same thing...It isn't healthy. When will you learn your lesson? No one runs back to what hurt them. They walk a straight path, no turning back. Don't stay in your comfort zone. Don't get used to the hurt. Those people are going to cause you pain until you lose control of yourself. You've lingered in the shadow long enough to know what heart break is. When you play. Play it right. Play it so they can't hurt you. Turn the tables on them or don't play at all. You'se lost your share of fights. Don't let them win. Don't let them take your life."

Always remember

I'll always remember your words"Don't let anyone close enough to hurt you. Don't tell anyone enough to misunderstand you."
No matter the distance I'll always remember you but will the promise you made before you left keep going to see more days or will it be lost in darkness?...people have told me many things but I never believed them because I knew the truth was out there...somewhere. I don't trust anyone because many have broken my trust before and if I can't trust myself, how can I trust them? If you were with me right nowyou'd feel me tremble and hear my heart break.
The truth isn't that you can't trust 'anybody' the truth is you can't trust 'everybody' because nobody shows who they really are. Everyone's fake in their own way.
They say they know how you feel but if they can't see the brokeness under that fake smile, do they really know you?

Moving On...

It's alright. It hurts, you're angry, you're hurting. It's healthy to be scared as well. Some people will leave you and go. Leave you just stranded there. You can go after them if you want or you can just walk the other way. Just walk away from them but you have to live your life, with or without them.
If they love you, they will stay, they will wait. If they don't care, they'll just go. Follow your heart, not your mind.
Move on and you will find someone who will always be waiting. They will walk the road you are walking because they want to, not because they have to.